Do you ever get that feeling?

You know the feeling I'm talking about.....everybody knows something you don't know? Yeah...that feeling.

I hate it. I hate being unsure. I hate being 'in the dark' about stuff.

It's noting major, but it involves a male- therefore it could turn into something major.

Here's the scoop.....as most of you know I've been hanging out with Sean and Chad a good bit. I would never even think of dating Sean, as I dated his little brother for a long time. But Chad on the other hand, he's a different story. :)

Tonight we went to a big bon-fire that a friend of ours was having. I was sitting at the fire and another friends husband started massaging my shoulders. His wife was sitting next to me and when Chad saw what he was doing he said "Oh, I see how it is. That's fine. You do mine, I'll do yours", and he started massaging the friends wife's shoulders. I had to stop and think for a minute....self. did he just say 'you do mine' like I am his? Oh, I think he did.

Later in the evening we rode down the road a little ways and on the way back home he hopped in the back seat and practically sat on my lap.

There have been lots of other things, like if someone is talking to me, someone else in our group of friend will say 'Oh Chad, so and so is talking to your woman'.

I know it's not a big deal, and I certainly would never want our friendship to turn into an Ashley/Duncan* situation.

My game plan? Ignore it. Don't push him away, but don't egg him on. Just act like myself and observe. I'm curious to see. Tonight was the furthest its ever gone. There were easily 30 people there, and no alcohol was involved so he definitely knows what he said. When Chad walked over to the friends wife they all laughed and said stuff like "You asked for it buddy", "Oh, Chad caught you", etc. It was like they all know something that I don't. Weird.

Well- it's 1 am, I'm tired so I'm off to bed.
~Ash

*The Ashley/Duncan situation: Duncan and I were very good friends. He confessed his feelings to me one night. We dated for 1 month and 1 week. I got a gorgeous promise ring and fell hard--- then I got my heart broken and I lost a very good friend. I'm still a little hurt over that, it hurts to pass him on the road or hear someone say his name. I miss my friend. I would have never dated him if I would have known things were going to end up the way they were. Check out my November 2006 through the beginning of January 2007 posts.