I'm making a vow to myself.....

It seems like every time I get down and out about something and I come on Blogger and confess my feelings and spill my guts, I feel better. I'm making a vow to myself, and I want my Blogger friends to know. I guess by saying this "out loud", it gives me strength to actually follow through.

Here's my vow: To not call Duncan until Sunday.

I have a philosophy about this. He can't miss me if we're always together and he can't possibly forget to call me as much as he claims he does. He was supposed to call me last night when he got off work, but he never did. We always watch American Idol together on Wednesday nights, but he didn't call tonight. I'm one of those women who never forget. If you say your going to do something and you don't follow through you are on something I like to call my 'Shit List'.

I don't think I'm bitter. I just want to handle this situation differently then I ever handled a situation similar to this with Michael. Of course, if he's doing it on purpose (which I think he is) then he knows that I'm upset because he hasn't called me. With Michael I would have screamed at him until I was blue in the face, but that was the old Ashley. The new Ashley has decided that men or boys who treat your heart like a doormat aren't worth your breath.

Don't get me wrong, I love the boy to death, but I'm not sure what his intentions are and I have to step back and re-evaluate the situation before I get led on and my heart gets stomped on. I'm tired of being upset, the right guy is out there and I'll find him one day. No rush.

Happy Wednesday :)
Ashley