I've been putting this post off because it's painful. I've been shutting the world out for the last couple of days, and my blog also took a hit.
I had fun on my birthday, but I drank entirely to much and it seems like it may have cost me my boyfriend. My mom was with me the entire time and she said that I didn't do anything that she noticed would upset him, but on Monday after my birthday (New Years Day) he announced that he needed space. We haven't broke up, he made that very clear. He also told me to wear my promise ring, which he gave me for my birthday. I haven't heard from him since Monday. My mom says it's possible he's scared, that this relationship has been moving fast and he just realized it. I don't know whats going on, and personally- I hope I find out soon. I've cried myself to sleep every night this week, the only way I can sleep is if I take a Tylenol PM and eating has become a chore.
I know it all sounds so ridiculous, but it's taking a toll on my heart. I worry more about losing our friendship. Sure, I love him- without a doubt- but losing our friendship would hurt the most. My dad did this to my mom early on in their relationship, and they've been married 26 years strong- going on 27 this year. I'm just trying to relax, stay calm and wait it out. Hopefully something good will come out of this.
On a side note, I'm in a much better place then I was last year this time. I've lost 40 pounds, and I got out of a bad relationship. I'm not doing too bad. I'm also going to graduate with my Associates degree in May, and I believe I'm going to enroll in EMT - Basic courses this Spring so I can go on first responder calls with the fire department. My main goal has always been to make a difference in lives, and what better way then to save them!?
So, don't feel pity for me. Just pray. I need prayers.
~Ash
Thursday, January 04, 2007
I've been putting this off.....
Posted by Ashley at 10:37 AM
Labels: duncan, frustration, life
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2 comments:
Keep your head up girl!
If he needs his space, give him his space, because if you don't - you'll always wonder why he needed space, and he'll always be resentful that he didn't get it. It's true the relationship has been moving fast, and it's true that he might be scared.
But, if you give him his space, and things don't work out - then that's on him for not realizing how amazing you are. And, it just means that there is someone else out there for you. But, if you give him his space and things are great, then you'll always know that he chose to come back and be with you, and he made the decision up that it was the best thing for him.
Best wishes.
I did this to Mr. Incredible, after he gave me a promise ring...I was too young, I was scared, I needed space to figure out what I wanted in life...and so much more.
Mr. Incredible was wise enough to give me my space, and now we've been married 10 years, but together for 12. Go read what So gone over you has said - she's right.
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